the insistence are getting higher. everyone around me bring oneself against my life. guess i'm reaching intensive pressure. not even one understand the situation. i tried to talk about it. from worst to insane. 14 feb, the date that change me to this state. i cant live on it anymore. dont talk bout friends. my own blood family dont bother why should others listen to me. i'm not controlling people to get attention. do you see me ask for help? no, because i know you cant do it. how can one spoon me if i can help myself right? neither can i do it. the peak is near. why else is there? more burden to come? face it, i lose it. in the end, i'm making trouble not only myself, circle of my life. influence, you suck. you make everything miserable. shouldn't follow you bitch. now i'm standing on my own spit. i want to give up. world doesnt matter to me.