heartwrenching. they dont see it. money bl0w their minds. what if i was a good guy.. stay out of troubles.. i doubt they treat the same way. i was left alone rotting at home. that man dont see this family home. the women happily stay somewhere..every night spend their beauty sleep peacefully. they dont see why im behaving like this. they only know every day i sleep.. the night i roam. without knowing how much tears running through those nights. i tried to keep confidential away from my friends. drunken nights burst it out. yet happily left ear in right ear out. bullshit to lending ear for help. shoulder to cry on?.. crap.

i just wish to live with a happy family again. miss them not because i dont see them often. i miss the moment we spend. i miss my sister too. somehow i know why she fly to LA..
hit my head with steel belt till it bleed...deep in heart, i miss..
i miss the old bukit batok ave 6 blk 186 family.
i miss every dinner we had together at habibs restaurant..
i miss we watch our fav shows on tv..

god please forgive my family. i beg.
i am a boy. become a man. cant bear shed tears.