im back home. heart still sank. i cant do anything else other than staring on this pc or pretending to sleep on thin mattress. guess what i did to cool down?.. collect all snails together. look how hard they try to move 5 cm in 10 minutes. but they just dont give up. so i came to a thought of .. why not.. no matter how pressure it is.. life still goes on. a simple smile to myself.

i dont know what will happen next. words or even sms dont make justice. dear sister, its not your fault being born in this world. did you saw this picture when u still baby i was holding on you? im not sure if you ever seen it. im glad you're here. maybe we were shy to share things and that. same goes with kakak. i really doubt we show how we cherish each other. i know inside each mind, we still treasure and miss the moments. simple moments like having dinner together. that was the best times. really. how kecoh we fussy about no sharing of drinks..

in the end.. i dont blame anyone else. i dont blame myself. we are fate to face this state.



i need this back..


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when will be the next reunion family dinner....with all the love ones...
please before my time end...