holy shit i didnt stay awake. eyes really cant take it. i was sleeping while staring the keyboard and when the head went sideways i eventually crave for the smelly bed.

theres it goes another afternoon wasted. woke up at 5pm with gf hit my head with her small-yet-solid-hands made my dreams wasted again. i cant remember exactly what i dream of but it feels like its gonna happen soon. few images still stuck in my head right now something got to do tomorrow morning 'big event'. its like im running away from it or someone get me out. anyway, dream will always be dream. but this round i hope it will really happen.

guess what after diggin all the post. i just pissed off for what actually the blogger is. she just another random makcik kepo who live in stable family just that her parents were divorced and sadly she was a spoilt brat bitch. so im takin back my thank you. i know this is cruel but literally we live in a free world. she is now for the past get what i mean. times are bad. so do the people. what i trying to say is when someone fall into a ditch he will ask for help. share the world how sick he is. but when he able to walk by himself with his long nose stickin up, nothing will stop him from cursing others. human nature. dont fight with me i know how one will feel when his great and how bad he is when his dumb fat slow pussy.

forget bout that. now focus on me. im pleading guilty. help me. less then 30 hours left. im not mentally physically prepare. im acting normal but my heart skips faster. just got to catch up with 2 hangout buddies. both have different view of it. one thought it will not be there long. another felt sorry for it with no comment but with the face..he will be gettin a solitary treat. guys im hiding my feelings. i will make sure i wont take for granted each day. i will make my weaknesses as my strength for my future. im only 21 this year still long way to go. i had enough experience throughout my youth life. this will always be memorable moments. if i have to go long and even further just remember me as your best veteran. learn from me. dont take things easily.

i make the post as my last denote. maybe this wont be long. i dont even have any clue how far it gonna takes. friends, bestfriends, enemies, families and my faithful girlfriend.. last wish please....wait for me.